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Saturday, July 17, 2010

A Hard Day for Foster and I

Foster and I just got done doing what no parent should EVER have to do. We designed Rosie's headstone. I cannot stress to you how sad this was. I have been stressing over it for the last 3 months because it makes her death so FINAL. Also, being the mom of an angel baby, there are so many things I can do in her name but only a few things I actually get to buy her, and I wanted it to be perfect, I wanted her to be proud of me and like her headstone. Since I will never get to help her pick out her prom dress and Foster will never be able to help her buy her first car, it was important that we put a lot of time and thought into this last earthly purchase we will ever make for her. It is going to be beautiful, just like she was. I promise, in 6-8 weeks when they place it, I will take pictures and let you all see and then you can see what quote won the honor of being engraved under her beautiful name.

To add insult to injury, we had our family picture taken for the church directory. We were expecting to have Rosie with us, but instead it was Foster, me and out two fur babies. As usual, Rowdy was a ham for the camera, and Reagan ran and hid, but we were able to get a few really good shots, and when we get them I will post one for you all to see. However, as we rounded the corner to purchase our prints, there was a beautiful picture of a mom, dad, and infant in the father's arm. It was a beautiful picture, and I could not take my eyes off of it. It made me really sad, because that SHOULD have been us! UGH!!

Oh well, as much as sometimes I wish it were not the case, life goes on. Wedding season is upon us! This next weekend Foster and I are attending my cousin's wedding, then I am celebrating my friend "Ann's" bachlorette party (from my previous post "Sleepwalking and Weddings"), then her wedding. It is going to be a busy couple of weeks. I am hoping it will put some smiles on my face, and make the time pass a little faster.

I am sorry I have not been posting quite as much, I have been busy helping Foster paint and get our house together. We are fixing up the basement bedroom and rec room. We will officially have all five bedrooms with beds and able to take guests. Welcome to "Hotel De Foster". If you stay, I would suggest taking the basement bedroom, cause the air is not on in the rest of the house. We are hoping to get the house in order and finished by the time we can start fostering and that way the home interviewer will have no excuse to deny us. I will definitely post the before and after photos of this home. I love this house, and we have worked hard to make it our home.


Maggie said...

You're right. No parent should ever have to go through the process of picking out a headstone for their child's grave...ever. I remember that day too. ((((HUGS)))))

Olivia's Mom said...

It's so hard having to pick out the headstone, because as you said, it makes it so final, but I did feel a slight sigh of relief once it was done. We lingered over the designing decision for months, but how can you not? You want it to be absolutely perfect for that sweet child. I look forward to seeing the quote you chose.

Also, I'm sorry you had to take the church directory pictures without Rosie. I hate those moments where you are reminded even more so of the things you SHOULD be doing as a family, yet someone's missing...


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