I miss her. I miss my daughter, Rosalynn, so much it hurts. I am so blessed, I have a beautiful Rainbow daughter, a wonderful husband, and a job that I adore. But there is still something missing. And the worst part, I feel like life has been going so fast lately, that I don't take the time to miss her.
Does that make sense?
Don't read that wrong. I didn't say that I don't miss her, or that I don't think about her EVERY SINGLE DAY, but I used to take time for Rosalynn. To write about her, I used to spend hours on my support group needing support from others and reading other baby loss moms' stories, supporting them as they did me. I used to keep all of you updated about my feelings, life, highs and lows. But the last entry in this blog was in SEPTEMBER!! Almost 4 months ago.
I know, I know, I shouldn't give myself a hard time. Life moves fast, and there are a million and one things that need done through out the day. And God knows that the spare time I do have I like to spend with Foster and Avaleen. However, I miss my little corner of the internet. I want to get back into blogging. Where should I start back up? What would you like to know?
And don't you worry!!! Every single time I get behind my camera (which has been ALOT lately) Rosalynn is with me. She is the one that inspired me in my photography journey, and I feel her. I think that is why I love it so much! I FEEL her every time I pick up my camera. It is when I feel closest to her.
I actually got the biggest honor a couple weeks ago. I was able to use the talent Rosie inspired me to find to capture the only images a family will ever have of their son. They knew it was a terminal pregnancy, praying and hoping for even a few short moments with him. I was in the operating room to capture the only moments his soul was here on earth. And then I was with the family for 8 hrs, documenting the love, sorrow, and joy of that day.
Thank you Rosie for helping your mom find this gift...so I can use it to give to others.
I will leave you with this picture taken today of my little munchkin....she was being mommy's big helper in the studio:-) I love her with all of my being. I love her so much it hurts!