Trying To Catch Up (picture overload!)

In keeping with the WANT to blog more often, I figured I would START to catch up a little on updating on Ava and Life in general!

Let's see. Ocotober was Ava' Birthday!! One whole year with the love of my life! We had a small party that included close family. I wanted to focus on Ava, and celebrating an amazing year with her with the people who loved her most.

Of COURSE I had to get a few 1 yr birthday pictures. It has become a tradition for me to incorporate a military picture into Ava's milestone photo shoots for dad, HOWEVER, this time we incorporated hunting:-) I think she still looks like a girl despite the boy clothes!

Then of COURSE we got some photos of her at her party!! :-)




Chowing down on her cake:

And my ADORABLE, HAPPY Godson Cole!! :-)

The day was a true testament to how much joy and Love Ava has brought into our lives. I truly feel like Ava has an  "old soul"....as if she understands, and is more aware than any 15 month old should...and I LOVE that little soul of hers. It brightens my life! :-)

Of COURSE Rosalynn was not forgotten during Ava's Birthday time:

We wanted to incorporate Rosie bear from Molly Bears into her Birthday session! 

I LOVE the one of Ava holding her:-) My two girls!

Unfortunately, being a photographer by profession, I RARELY get in front of the camera. But I made my husband take a photo of me and Ava for her 1 yr Birthday photos, and then my AMAZING assistant took the photo of our whole family! :-)

I know this is a little picture overload, but I feel like I have to play catch up on ALOT! lol. I leave you with two last images...the last one is evidence of Ava's ornery side!

One of Those Nights....

I should be editing. I should be sleeping. I should be doing sooo many different things right now, but I had an overwhelming urge to write.

I miss her. I miss my daughter, Rosalynn, so much it hurts. I am so blessed, I have a beautiful Rainbow daughter, a wonderful husband, and a job that I adore. But there is still something missing. And the worst part, I feel like life has been going so fast lately, that I don't take the time to miss her.

Does that make sense?

Don't read that wrong. I didn't say that I don't miss her, or that I don't think about her EVERY SINGLE DAY, but I used to take time for Rosalynn. To write about her, I used to spend hours on my support group needing support from others and reading other baby loss moms' stories, supporting them as they did me. I used to keep all of you updated about my feelings, life, highs and lows. But the last entry in this blog was in SEPTEMBER!! Almost 4 months ago.

I know, I know, I shouldn't give myself a hard time. Life moves fast, and there are a million and one things that need done through out the day. And God knows that the spare time I do have I like to spend with Foster and Avaleen. However, I miss my little corner of the internet. I want to get back into blogging. Where should I start back up? What would you like to know?

And don't you worry!!! Every single time I get behind my camera (which has been ALOT lately) Rosalynn is with me. She is the one that inspired me in my photography journey, and I feel her. I think that is why I love it so much! I FEEL her every time I pick up my camera. It is when I feel closest to her.

I actually got the biggest honor a couple weeks ago. I was able to use the talent Rosie inspired me to find to capture the only images a family will ever have of their son. They knew it was a terminal pregnancy, praying and hoping for even a few short moments with him. I was in the operating room to capture the only moments his soul was here on earth. And then I was with the family for 8 hrs, documenting the love, sorrow, and joy of that day.

Thank you Rosie for helping your mom find this gift...so I can use it to give to others.

I will leave you with this picture taken today of my little munchkin....she was being mommy's big helper in the studio:-) I love her with all of my being. I love her so much it hurts!