Dreams

For the past four months I have been having dreams that are so vivid i think I am awake, or maybe I AM awake. They are so fuzzy only minutes after I "wake up". I wish I can remember them so I can explain them and ask for advice. I think I will put a notebook next to my bed and see if I can make any sense of them. They used to be scary, but now that I expect them on a nightly basis, I am trying to focus on them and find out what is going on. I have woken Foster out of a dead sleep from shrieking and gasping out of my sleep.

Also, one of the only things I have been praying to dream about I have not. Is it strange that in four months I have not had a single dream about my daughter. Some of you may find me a little crazy, but I completely believe that your dreams is where your dead loved ones can communicate with you if you pay attention. My Ganny has come to me in dream NUMEROUS times since her passing, and even a few times since Rosie's passing. I have had the nightmares of the scene in the hospital of the US that verified my daughter was gone. I have also had nightmares of random birth scenes and dead babies, but all I want is a dream of my beautiful baby girl. Maybe I just want it too bad, and she will come to me when I need her most.